EMO DAYS

OKay so don't get any idea's and no i'm not EMO but have you ever had those days when you felt like you or nothing you said never seemed to matter to anyone......well i'm having one of those days.......I feel like everytime i try to be a friend and help somebody they tae advantage of me everytime i tell somebody what's on my mind they always have to go and change my words and make it seem like I'm out to hurt evrybody i try to put out the fire and they only throw me in and hope to god i burn why cant any one understand the good that i want to bring why does evry one get so lost in this world of pain...

Damn if only i could make it rain that way everyone could sit in the rain and cry out all there pain wipe the slate clean and maybe we can all try agian to be friends i wish every one would stop trying to hurt each other and just try to be friends...... some times i wish i could be some body else some one who matters some one who every body wants to friends with.... i mean dont get me wrong i love my self and most things about me but its kinda of irratating being myself and i dont want to be myself any more if its only going to bring pain to the world........ does anybody know what i mean it sucks to have to spend everyday of your life scared that someones out to hurt you............ I'm so tired of trying to be what people want me and i'm tired of people judgeing me because i wear black clothes and i wear my hair a certain way everyday or because i sing sad songs and write sad poetry why cant people see that i am me and i dont want to be like every one else i just want to be me i'm tired of being called the emo kid who needs a life.........I'm tired of people looking at me like i'm a freak as i walk down the hall way and telling me why cant i be more like him or her well obviously i dont want to im happy being me i'm not emo im not goth im not scene im motha fukkin me........i've grown so numb to this world people hateing on me because i'd rahter sit alone then be there friend and the friends i thought i had running there mouths and saying out of control stuff just to start a war all the fake friends i have and thought they were real.....i'm threw with people walking in to my life and telling me they love me only to turn around and spit in my face to slit my throat and watch me bleed is that how truly most people get there plesure why is this world so suicidal??????????????