Are asian's really as smart as people say

OKay so there is this so called theory going around that asian's are big time nerds and that when its comes to education in school's asian's rank the highest over everybody well thats not true its all a bunch of lies that some one made up and i know for a fact.......now yes i understand in an educational enviorment Asian children rank highest yet that is not because of them themselves while american parents spend little time with their children focusing on school work asian parents have their children hitting the books from sun up to sun down......its a very inbigurating process while american children our playing out side with their friends yes you geussed it asian children are inside preparing them selves for the future if american parents spent more time focus on their childs education then there wouldnt be this diversety among the school envioirment...........when i walk in to an american high schoolin nevada and i look around i see diverst groups on one side of the school i see asian's still studying for school even though they are amongst company of friends...........i see hispanics playing a game of soccer in the quad........i see young white males smoking in the bathroom and i see young white females fighting over somebodys boyfriend...........
I myself am a proud asian american so i get the best of both worlds as some may say........ so i know how both worlds are my mom is asian and my dad is american........i'm not the smartest apple in the bunch i try my hardest in school but i feel as if i dont have my parents support to succeded so sooner or later i just give up

EMO DAYS

OKay so don't get any idea's and no i'm not EMO but have you ever had those days when you felt like you or nothing you said never seemed to matter to anyone......well i'm having one of those days.......I feel like everytime i try to be a friend and help somebody they tae advantage of me everytime i tell somebody what's on my mind they always have to go and change my words and make it seem like I'm out to hurt evrybody i try to put out the fire and they only throw me in and hope to god i burn why cant any one understand the good that i want to bring why does evry one get so lost in this world of pain...

Damn if only i could make it rain that way everyone could sit in the rain and cry out all there pain wipe the slate clean and maybe we can all try agian to be friends i wish every one would stop trying to hurt each other and just try to be friends...... some times i wish i could be some body else some one who matters some one who every body wants to friends with.... i mean dont get me wrong i love my self and most things about me but its kinda of irratating being myself and i dont want to be myself any more if its only going to bring pain to the world........ does anybody know what i mean it sucks to have to spend everyday of your life scared that someones out to hurt you............ I'm so tired of trying to be what people want me and i'm tired of people judgeing me because i wear black clothes and i wear my hair a certain way everyday or because i sing sad songs and write sad poetry why cant people see that i am me and i dont want to be like every one else i just want to be me i'm tired of being called the emo kid who needs a life.........I'm tired of people looking at me like i'm a freak as i walk down the hall way and telling me why cant i be more like him or her well obviously i dont want to im happy being me i'm not emo im not goth im not scene im motha fukkin me........i've grown so numb to this world people hateing on me because i'd rahter sit alone then be there friend and the friends i thought i had running there mouths and saying out of control stuff just to start a war all the fake friends i have and thought they were real.....i'm threw with people walking in to my life and telling me they love me only to turn around and spit in my face to slit my throat and watch me bleed is that how truly most people get there plesure why is this world so suicidal??????????????

Stupid Girl's

Where have all the S.M.A.R.T people gone i can't find them any where i think they all got S.M.A.R.T and ran away from home.....okay so that's not exactly S.M.A.R.T but oh well now it will be alot easier to find the stupid people............................................
Has any body seen all those girls danceing on freemont street in those skimp little outfits or those girl that make them selves vomit just so they can be as skinny as me STUPID GIRLS!!!!! always trying so hard to fit in with those people that they call beautiful ...... trying to be one of the girls that all the boys want to be with disrespecting them selves just to find fake love well in a way i used to be one of those girls not with makeing my self vomit just to be skinny or wearing all the skimpy out fits just to make me self look like a hoe but i used to worry about what people thought of me i used to wish i was as pretty as some other girl but then i realized that i didnt need make up to make myself pretty.........I've got myself in to trouble dateing a couple of bad seeds and i've gotten myself hurt by some stupid guys.... but then i made the rite choice i met my best friend and the guy who showed me that i am important to the world and of course as all the cinderella story's say i feel in love :) so all you girls out there trying to be something your not just stop just be your self there's some body out there who's just perfect for you don't go looking for them let them come to you...................

OKay so as usual i get on here and i write what looks to you as totally random things but if you were to take a closer look you would see that the things i write have so much meaning you just got to slow down to read them just take your time..........and let it all come to you slowly

Random Things

OKay so lately I have been getting loads of random text message's from number's I dont even know.....or like my people's dont even know......so like "WTF" so i call my tellyphone peole's and complain........... and as you all know they were no help they just called me MAM and made me feel really really old like oh my gosh gray hair.........so they changed my phone number which is never any phone because then well you got to tell everybody your phone number agian so i start calling all my top peoples and tell them my new phone number......gesh this is way to much work..............................................

OKay so today i feel totally special because I have a secret and oh my's is it big........so yesterday was my aunty's birthday and so family came over......and well they had chesse cake :( awww it sure did look yummy but poor me I'm lactose intolerant which means no chesse cake for me so then we watched some buttler movie and omg the buttlered fell in love with rich meany head alot of things happened today not to mention I think I am starting to love my boy friend 7(22) "hhhmmmm confuseing" but i don't know if i should tell him or not he's such an incredible person i feel like i can tell him anything i feel like his the one who care's sometimes.............SO CONFUSEING i geuss i should tell him......well it wasn't all happy my friend Marilou and my friend Babiee Girl yes her name is really Babiee Girl got in a fight with the guy that Marilou was supposedly dateing and here's the funny thing Babee Girl used to be engaged to the dude [[LJ]] that Marilou was so called dateing so like yae none of the girls in the group are talking to him and yea he is such a social outcast to all of us now..............

OKay so I'm part of a little skateboard group which consist of me [[ Marilou,Babiee Girl, Tiffany, Sofien and Sofie, Bonez, Marie jane,Gabriell, Devin, Eric, Matty and Manny, and of course my sister Maliyssa Ryaul]]................... so yea most of us are girls and yes we do skate board and we are actualy pretty good you would be suprised......well they are pretty much my main group of friends well that skate...........so yea one day we were hanging out and we almost got in to a fight with some girls who said that girls cant skateboard and that girls that skate date the same sex so Marilou got mad and swung at one of teh girls then like omg it got crazy I was trying to break it up....but no matter what i did they wouldn't stop so now I'm not talking to any of them rite now...............

OKay so you remeber how i told you i might love my boy friend well yea I'm still confused of wiether i do or not but i told him and yea we started talking about it and yea it's a very interesting conversation.........

bored on the internet

Okay so get this i was really really bored today and so i started just typeing in random site's on the internet and i almost cried when i found an article about my teacher that was murdered over christmas break........all you basic wolves out there know what I'm talking about does anybody remeber Mr.Cox and the trajic thing that happened to him all he wanted to do was help he didn't deserve what he was given I'll never forgot all the sad face that morning we all returned to school I still have the ribbon pinned above my computer desk choir was not the same with out Mr.Cox I don't think any student was the same after christmas break......numerous students dropped out of choir because of his death it was such a terrible thing to happen to our beloved wolve I'll never forget him and all that he did for the basic high school community......:[
Okay so after reading up on that and seeing comments that pepole left on the news articles about him talking about he's a fag and how there's one less homosezual in our community to pray on young mexican's like the students who murdered Mr.Cox those comments deeply inraged me how someone who had no clue who Mr.cox was or is could say such horrible things they had no real definition of Mr.Cox just what the internet and news papers said about him......how could they be so cruel when tey didn't even know the truth they had no rite and have no heart.....those of us who truly know and love Mr.cox know what true meaning he had on our lives.................
OKay so i started texting some friends to get my mind off of all those ignorant people and then like total drama there was an all out braul in front of my house like what the fuck is wrong with people now a day's always trying to hurt people
"oh my fucking god" why can't we all just be friends so then i got back on the internet and i was reading about some little seven year old boy who stole his faters car and lead police on a car chase just because he didn't want to go send thanks to the man upstairs (go to church)what in the world is wrong with society...... I awear we all young and old deserve punishment young and grown men are out there disrespecting women out there talking about they just want sex and money and "that girl got a nice ***" and women now a day's dressing in what appears to be just there undergarnment's and paradeing around vegas and selling their body like they have no respect for them selves it just disgust's me it makes me feel ashamed to be who i am a female of high quality will sell her body on the street just to make not even enough money to put a rough over her head is this the future for our children I my self still am considered as a child yet i am not i'm a sixteen year old female who as kept my mouth shut for so long i have seen things some will never know I have been threw things that i never wanted m children to go threw i have felt heaven and i have felt hell i may be a young adult only sixteen years old but i have a story to tell that will change lives......... there are things that have happened to me when i was incredibly young that still haunt me and scar me to this day